When your support network crashes

Well – the last week has been truly the most frustrating! Having geared myself up and having put all of the tools in place (so I thought!) – this blog, Twitter, I subscribed to numerous sober blogs and also starting joining in the forums on My Way Out – thought I had every base covered…. and then the unthinkable happened. My trusty laptop (which admittedly was 4 years old) crashed! I thought it was just a hitch, so tried to re-boot, but just got a black screen with loads of diagnostics. It was an incredibly hot day and the laptop was really hot – so I popped it in the fridge for an hour – but still nothing – kaput!

I rang my local IT superhero who informed me that my hard drive had died! šŸ˜¦ despair, not only right on deadline with over a week’s work sitting on my desktop now unattainable! Then IT superhero informs me that he should be able to recover everything for me, but will need to take the laptop away for a few days – this is when the horror hit home! On my desktop I had several ‘alcoholic’ audio downloads. There was a shortcut to my Wearywino email and a bookmark to my blog all with the passwords saved so I didn’t have to keep logging in – oh the shame of it! IT superhero is going to take one look at my hard drive and discover my miserable secret!

Well – fast forward a few days. New laptop purchased and given to IT superhero to set up software and reload the recovered files – not a word said between us (I don’t think I can ever look him in the eye again) – he may even start readingĀ this blog!!!

So, having spent the last four days working late into the evening to try and catch up with the mountain of work that’s been accumulating, today I have finally found the time to try and remember the log in details for all of my online support networks and get back on board.

So – did I slip? The answer is yes (not horrifically, but we had friends round for a BBQ at the weekend and the temptation was just too much!) Now I know that I shouldn’t put all of my eggs in one basketĀ – my entire toolbox was internet based. I need to add some other elements to my plan (maybe keep a diary or notebook). I have never been to AA – don’t think I could pluck up the courage to walk into a room of strangers.

So – to be more focused from today – life is good!

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3 thoughts on “When your support network crashes

  1. I understand about needing courage to go to AA. It took me close to 3 months to get there, and every ounce of courage I had in my body to walk through the door. Boy am I glad I did. I went into a room filled with people who understand what it is to be me, newly sober, and white knuckling.
    Put on your biggest, big girl pants and give it a try. If a chicken shit like me can do it, my bet is you can too. šŸ™‚

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